Friday night and I am all alone... Good. Honestly. I never have time to just be. To have a moment where I can do whatever I want in the whole of my world. I am more then excited to be going back to school.
My brain doesn't like to let me sleep these days. I feel like there is something that I need to be doing that I am not. a restlessness in my soul that keeps me thinking about people far longer, and far deeper then I should. Hell I fell in love at first sight for crying out loud. I am happy I did it, and the brief and beautiful relationship that died just about as fast as it started. huh... haven't had that many romantic relationships, but any of them have left me lacking.
And my brain moves on, finds the next hapless soul that falls into it's obsession, and takes my heart and soul along with it. (to the detriment of all involved...) It will settle long enough to freak the person out and then crash horribly in an explosive turmoil that knocks me out. I don't fucking want this shit! really...
Why is it I can't just be happy alone?
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