thursday

I realized just now, every moment in my life has been strung together to every other moment, all the good, the bad, anything that has hampered me, all that has been here to help me, everyone who told me that I wouldn't do anything with myself, everyone who knew that I was going to change everything. All of it has brought me to this tiny coffee shop in salt lake city. From here I must decide the fate of my future, and of everything. Here is where I sit and wonder if it is all worth it. If there is something in this world worth fighting for. I don't think that there really is anything. Maybe that is the part of me tht lost faith talking. Maybe that is the person who wanted to give in , to let this whole world be lost in the flurry that was to follow. Yet I am here. Alone for now. Happy to be doing what I need to.